Not If I See You First

In Not If I See You First, Parker Grant confronts her past while navigating the complexities of love, loss, and resilience in her teenage life.

In Not If I See You First, Parker Grant navigates life with a unique perspective shaped by her blindness. She has established her own set of rules to ensure she is treated with respect and dignity. Her mantra is clear: no one should take advantage of her vulnerability, and she will not tolerate any perceived pity. This fierce independence is put to the test when her past collides with her present, particularly when Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who once broke her heart, returns to her life. Parker's instinct is to shut him out completely, but the complexities of their shared history make this easier said than done.

As Parker attempts to focus on her goals, such as trying out for the track team and mentoring her classmates, she is constantly reminded of her father's absence. Each day without him is a challenge, and she keeps track of her progress by awarding herself gold stars for emotional resilience. However, the arrival of Scott forces her to confront unresolved feelings and truths that she has tried to bury. The narrative unfolds as Parker learns that the past is not as clear-cut as she believed, leading her to question her own perceptions and the nature of her relationships.

Not If I See You First is an exhilarating and authentic exploration of grief, love, and the complexities of personal identity. It invites readers to see through Parker's eyes, challenging them to reconsider their own understanding of the world around them.