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With or Without Me

A Memoir of Losing and Finding

Esther Maria Magnis author Alta L Price translator

Format:Paperback

Publisher:Plough Publishing House

Published:21st Apr '22

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In With or Without Me, Esther Maria Magnis shares her poignant journey through grief and doubt, challenging traditional beliefs about faith and suffering.

The book With or Without Me explores the profound struggles of faith and doubt, addressing the complex questions many face regarding existence and suffering. It is a compelling memoir that resonates with anyone grappling with life's uncertainties, regardless of their beliefs. Esther Maria Magnis shares her journey through grief, illustrating how the quest for meaning often leads to more questions than answers. This narrative is not just for the devout; it invites all readers to reflect on their own beliefs and experiences.

In With or Without Me, Magnis confronts the harsh realities of personal loss and the inadequacies of traditional religious and philosophical responses to emotional pain. Her candid reflections reveal the rawness of her experiences, making it clear that doubt is a natural part of the human condition. The book captures her struggles with faith, especially when faced with the suffering of loved ones, prompting readers to consider the complexities of belief in a seemingly indifferent world.

Ultimately, With or Without Me serves as a reminder that the journey of faith is often fraught with challenges. Magnis's story is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit, encouraging readers to explore their own paths to understanding. It raises important questions about the nature of God, suffering, and the search for meaning, making it a thought-provoking read for anyone who has ever contemplated the deeper aspects of life.

“I have not known anyone since Nietzsche who shows so shockingly what a catastrophe it is to not believe in God." —Robert Spaemann
"There are not many who dare to speak of God as unabashedly as Esther Maria Magnis." —Public Forum
With or Without Me is utterly necessary. Breathtakingly honest with unflinching rawness, this book is a must read for anyone who has ever pondered the meaning of life. —Lydia S. Dugdale, author of The Lost Art of Dying: Reviving Forgotten Wisdom
Seldom have I read a Christian book that possessed such raw energy and passion. With or Without Me is an honest account of death, bereavement and grief which lays bare what it means to love and lose. —Inspire Magazine

Faith is like a piece of quartz that Magnis turns over in her palm, examining all its angles, the sharp edges and the shine. This lends With or Without Me a thoughtful and introspective quality, contemplative without being meandering... She deftly balances the transcendent and immanent as she recounts her walk towards God, yet never reduces her discussion of faith to abstractions. —Today's American Catholic


Esther Maria Magnis addresses traditional philosophy and religion head on in this unflinching memoir, which details her difficult sojourn away from the Christian faith and then back to it. Amid the spate of personal deconstruction narratives of the past few years, readers will appreciate this German author’s distinct perspective. With or Without Me is essential reading for anyone who has ever doubted God’s goodness in the midst of personal loss. —Christian Century


Magnis recounts with brutal honesty the depth of her loss. —War Cry Magazine, UK

ISBN: 9781636080260

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201 pages